Sunday, January 27, 2013

Connection: Tenacity and College

I don't remember when it started but I think it was shortly after my brothers went to college that a feeling  of escape was brewing. My household is kind of insane. My parents both being heavily involved in theater are super drama queens and any sort of mild disturbance became a complete fiasco. Lots of yelling and complaining and to much alcohol. But I knew I couldn't do much. I knew that time would allow for my freedom and I needed to stick with it. 

GRIT "The order to keep one's resolve when faced with an unpleasant or painful duty"(apple dictionary). I didn't have it. I had to learn that the desire to flee my house was something I needed to control. My brothers told me of this wild wonderland called college. Their details were rated pg but the freedom that came with living outside of parent rule sounded splendid. However, they weren't happy with where they were. My mother made that clear to me. She made sure I didn't end up at some mediocre school. I'm not the smartest kid. I'm not the best worker. But she shaped me into someone who could push to make it enough. To make it where I would be safe and comfortable. She would say "There are doors open for everyone, but only some can see the windows that lead to real freedom". She taught me the grit. 

When I was younger I was told I was stupid. I was told I would fail and go nowhere. She taught me how to to stand up for myself. That even though I may be smashed down getting back up is the only way out. I've used it ever since. And recently college has been that push. I wanted to get into a good school. A school with a structured genetics program and that could give me the opportunity to do anything. I spent so much time working on getting things done. That work finally paid off. I got into not only Penn State but their specialized science college. 

The work I did for college taught me how to apply Grit and Tenacity. It wasn't until Humans that I learned their terms. I am no self aware of these actions and I will be able to take these skills that I've learned and apply them to the rest of my life.